afraid of all the blues

“The Blues,” by Angu Walters

i want to be a painter
but i’m afraid of all the blues

there is a story in my camera
and it bends my mirror
the only thing i can see is myself
and i’m not there
that’s why i want to be a painter
but i’m afraid i’ll spill the blues

don’t own a typewriter
which i suppose fortuitous
a lifetime’s pounding on the keys
has bent my twitchy fingers and
those old machines were unforgiving
even the eraser ribbon
couldn’t delete the years i knew her
i shoulda been a painter
cause i’m stuck inside her blues

i tried to wrap her love
in a free-verse poem, but
she kept popping up in rhyme
(i’m not a poet, i just rhyme at lot)
she was too far off the beat
for me to learn the music, so
i want to be a painter
‘cause i’m spilling all the blues

my mirror’s getting grayer
else i’d try to be a model
i’d look better on the web
than in real life; maybe
get more calls from lonely girls
wondering why my heart’s
been disconnected
it isn’t; you can find me under
“Painter” and my number’s
all in blues

i must try to be a painter
‘cause i like these lovely blues


  1. Hanno Phenn says:

    Very interesting line of thoughts.I can relate to it. But the creative process of a Painter or a photographer and a Writer are quite different as a painter you work with form shape colour and your brush and every piece of equipment influences the painting. A Photographer works with Camera and light there are less margins of influence in the outcome of the picture. A Writer is free to write what he wants he can let his thoughts flow wherever he likes the equipment is not relevant to the outcome of the text.

    1. Hanno, I agree with you. I’m old enough that the equipment for a writer (and a photographer) were a big problem. It wasn’t much easier to type than it was to write long-hand, and you spent a lot of time stumbling over the mistakes you made when you type. It didn’t help the writing, but it got in the way a lot. Now we don’t have that problem.

      With photography, there is some influence, but not much, as you say. In fact, if you know what you’re doing, you should be able to have the camera make no difference. I wonder what will happen with painting as more and more people go all digital. I wonder if it will get to the point where the equipment no longer helps to shape the work.

      1. Hanno Phenn says:

        The equipment is vital you can not digitally mix colour like you do manually,because the manually mixed colour will change by environmental influences like air pigment and fill material .The Paper is different with every sheet you use ,the hair of your brush are different by every kind of hair are used.If you work digitally you can just choose what the Software gives you and what your Computer will allow you to do by his ability. Not to forget the quality of the Display. Now the point if you produce prints of your Digital work you have to relate on your printer and the driver software. now the vital point a hand painted Picture will change by ageing and will take on dirt and environmental influenced will change the pigments in the colour.the Digital picture will be as fresh as on the day you created it even after years the print will age but it is just a copy of a copy it is not the original digital picture.I like to do Digital Art because it is fast and very direct but the Traditional Art has so to speak more personality and heart it is unique .

  2. cecilia says:

    A Blue Period! excellent.. c

    1. My recent life is a Blue Period, with women whose minds were like a cubist painting. I’m hoping to emerge into a new period any day now.

  3. EagleAye says:

    Keep spillin’ Blues like that and people will start callin’ you things like Howlin’ Wolf and Muddy Waters.

    1. Yeah, well right now they just call me Howling Idiot and Muddy Thinking.

      1. EagleAye says:

        Hehe. Just send them to me, I’ll straighten them out. A little Buddy Guy and some slide guitar will soothe their savage breast.

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